Defined throat; four gate activations:

62.1, 62.3, 62.4; I think or not.
56.4; I believe or not.
12.5; I know I can try or not.
45.1; I have or not.

I notice the voice of gate 45 and the channel 45/21 the most since it's a complete conscious channel connected obviously to two defined centers, the throat and heart/ego center.

The voice I hear from this channel is: I have this, and I don't have that. And with an open head and ajna, when I walk into any store, I hear: I don't have all this. I should have all this. I don't have the money to buy what I want to buy. This voice is all about having or not having. Gennaro said in my Chiron Return reading, "You're not here to be the beach bum, you're here to own the beach." Lynda said in my first reading, "Oh wow, you're supposed to be rich."

This voice that speaks to me of not having seems to be with me most of the time. It's just sort of in the background. It feels terrible. It does not come from a place of peace.

Ra talks about the 45/21 as a manifesting channel and as having the most willpower.
With gate 54.6 in my personality sun, and 54.4 personality in Mercury, and 54.1 personality in Venus, maybe this is why I have used my energy and willpower to seek transformation on a spiritual level instead of making money. My drive and will has always been towards transformation and for some reason, I have never learned how to make money, even through this is the Money Line channel.
Ra says the model motto of the 45/21 is to protect and serve. I much more relate to this piece of this channel. Ra says the 54.4 is the most mystical of all gates. He says the truth hiding in the ego circuit is that the spirit is hiding in the mundane. To learn to combine the mundane and the spiritual is the reason why we are here, he says.

I know I have suppressed the voice from my heart/ego and throat. I know it is said that if this voice is suppressed, it can be damaging to one's organ systems in the body.

I can and do respond from my defined sacral and spleen, but I'm not completely sure how to use my heart/ego to throat voice. I am still learning this.

The awareness of conditioning allows me to see that it really is quite something to transcend conditioning and live life as YOURSELF. Living into this and experiencing it as it unfolds is such an adventure.

Susan 6/2 MG

I've gotten pretty good at observing my mind and not taking it too seriously WHEN I am in a serene environment.

My mind starts to take over, however, if I find myself in environments that are chaotic or emotionally charged (open SP with active 36). I also react quite negatively if I feel someone is pressuring me to do things on the spur of the moment without my getting to "think it through" (open spleen). Other times I get a "one track mind" when my financial world or previous "bargains" are threatened (open ego). I watch myself get extremely compulsive and tenacious about "proving myself" during those moments. That is also when my open head center kicks in and my mental anxiety keeps me from getting much sleep.

My open G doesn't get in my way as much as it used to. True, I have spent countless hours reading and studying "self help" this and that, but at this stage feel my lack of clear direction has blossomed into an immense love and profound connection with the universe--and all things that are a part of it. I seem to really "get" what makes each of us tick and why our differences are so perfect.

The BIGGER struggle for me with my strong activated Anja, is that it is deeply connected to my defined throat. Rather than keeping all these "observations" to myself, I tend to want to communicate it all to the world. (and my 4/6 profile doesn't help!)

Lynda: Great work Carol. I too feel that the first thing to let go of it's grip was the open G. And yes, I would think that your strongly defined throat/Ajna would require more diligence. Thanks.

My open centers are HEAD, AJNA, SOLAR PLEXUS & ROOT.

I'll start at the bottom since my DESIGN SUN & EARTH GATES are in my open Root, then I'll work my way up:

Two days ago, instead of hitting the pillow and falling asleep, I started going through episodes that I have mentioned in recent conversations I've had on my own open centers and jotted down some key insights which I believe explain my MIND CHATTER & Conditioning in my open centers.

I have noticed that I am terrible at calculating the ammount of time a task will take me... I usually think "NO PROBLEM, I CAN HANDLE THAT IN !50 MINUTES" 2 hours later, I am still at it... The reason? I add more "tasks along the way thinking I can "HANDLE IT ALL". One of my parents was always working "against the clock" (also open root) and I guess I thought I could grow up to "BEAT THE CLOCK", ADD MORE TASKS, WORK, ETC and STILL COME OUT ON TOP. This creates a lot of exhaustion. I end up tired & frustrated that I didnt get everything done or that I spread myself so thin that I wasn't able to do a better job.

I have the natural tendency to say & do things that will provoke others... It's fine when the emotions that come up are Happiness, Joy or when I just provoke someone to do a little introspection. But I have also noticed I can provoke extreme anger, violence, sadness, sense of inadequacy in others and it is so uncomfortable that I have sometimes swallowed comments & actions (at my body's expense) in order to "keep the peace" around me. I am comfortable rocking the boat in some "safe" environments but I still refrain from doing it in a lot of places or situations. I've caught myself thinking "DONT SAY ANYTHING" when something natural in me is about to let something out.

I do tend to get moments of anguish and notice then that my head is getting the best of me and I allow myself a moment to disengage from it... But this happens when I actually catch myself doing it... I'm still working on this.

Lynda: Thanks for the share and insights Tony. It gets easier and easier as the 7 years goes by.

Undefined solar plexus with unconscious 6.5 as the only hanging gate:

My mind says to my open SP:
You might go into several days of paralysis if you aren't careful. After all, it happened a few times in the past. It could happen again. You never know. Remember a few times you were paralyzed by an unexpected emotion? So don't rock the boat. Lay low. Hide. Be nice. Remember when you couldn't handle emotions in the past? How do you know that won't happen again, and when you least expect it? Protect yourself. No one else will. You're all alone in this. All you have is you, so don't make waves. Avoid confrontation. Why would you want to create confrontation anyway? It makes no sense to do that. Your only hope is to be very, very careful.

My mind says to my undefined G center:
What? Go in a new direction? Why would you want to do that? Stay the same. It's safer. Don't change. Who am I? You better find out. You have to have an identity. Oh, hey, maybe this is it. (depending on who I am with) You better get a direction in your life.

So what used to happen before Human Design days, is that I would be deeply and unknowingly influenced by defined G people. To some degree, I would feel like them and feel like I had their identity or personality. Sometimes it felt like home. Then when I wasn't with them, I felt like I had no home, no identity. Now, however, I just notice this and it is so amazing to me. By becoming the witness without identifying with others, I can feel their defined G centers. They are all so different! No two are alike! If I don't remain present, their defined G center will overtake me or influence me to where I feel lost. When I see myself as a spiritual being having a human experience, I then remain pesent and don't feel lost. But this really requires being present. It's easy to slip out of that when in the aura of another, and then I feel lost again. If I ask myself sacral yes/no questions, this keeps me present. If I feel the difference between thinking and inner knowing, I remain present.
The upside of this is that I can hear my Higher Self fairly easily when meditating alone. I can hear spiritual direction. By letting go of the need for identity and love, and by accepting that I am not here to initiate, I can just surrender to the flow of the river and see where it takes me. It's easy to feel that I have to be the DOER and find direction to compensate for this open G center, rather than surrender and trust. With an open G and with a 6/2 profile, my spiritual growth has always been very important to me.

Susan Wight 6/2 MG

Lynda: Thanks Susan for letting us into your head! I'm wondering if asking yourself yes/no questions is really as a good way to go. I would think the mind would get in the way. It's better to have someone else ask you I think. Thanks.

Rave Cartography class
Biological relationships to the centers:
(This information is from Richard Rudd’s book)

Root Center: A motor – pressure center
The Root center is associated with the adrenaline system and with our stress hormones. This is a vital fuel.
The Root is a motor and is the only center that does not have access to the Throat center. The energy of the Root is too strong to be directly connected to the Throat. For the pressure from the Root center to reach the Throat, it is ‘processed’ through another center or centers. Thus stress in itself is merely a ‘fuel’ that energies certain deep biochemical processes within us. How we cope with stress in our lives is always connected to our own unique Root center and the way in which its gates are defined or undefined.

Throat center: Metabolism - Motor
Biologically, this is where the Thyroid and the Para-thyroid glands are located. These glands are endocrine glands and act as metamorphic agents in the body. They govern our metabolism – how we break down food, how we burn energy, whether we are fast or slow, whether we digest quickly or not, whether we are big or small, skinny or fat. All these things are rooted in the Thyroid system. The fact that the Throat center is related to the Thyroid glands means that any metamorphic process can only be initiated through the throat center. So the Throat center brings change to our lives. Because the Throat center governs so many vital biological processes in our bodies, if we do not honor the strategy of our Type, it is here that things first begin to break down within our bodies.

Sacral center: A motor
The Sacral center is the root of human fertility and is related to the ovaries in women and the testes in men. Because of this, the Sacral center is different from any other center in that it is the only center that operates differently for women than it does for men. This has to do with its capacity to generate. What it generates if life itself. In essence, it is a fertility center and unlike all the other centers, it does not really need the reach the Throat center. It can propagate life on its own. Thus its main themes are sexuality, fertility and vitality.

The Spleen: An awareness center
The Spleen represents the body’s immune system as it operates through the lymphatic system, the spleen itself and the spleen cells. Comprising around eighteen percent of all the cells within our bodies, our lymphatic system is vast. The lymph cells are in fact rather like little ears, noses and tongues, which are all over the body. Their job is to constantly listen, taste and smell in order to ensure that everything is balanced and healthy within our body, and it isn’t, they immediately warn us. If something arises in our body that disturbs the lymph cells, such as an invading virus, they immediately spring into action, activating the body’s defense system. We can compare the lymphatic system to a washing machine that cleans out all kinds of dirt in our bodies. At another level, our lymphatic awareness also alerts us to negative vibrations coming from other people’s auras.

Ajna center: Mind – Awareness center
The anterior and posterior pituitary glands are found in the Ajna center. These are very important endocrine glands because they are the headquarters of the instructions for the whole body. We humans lead a mind-dominated life, because the pituitary glands are in charge of sending out the hormonal information that will be metamorphosed by the Thyroid glands. They give instructions both about the maintenance of the inside of the body and the outside world.
Each of the three awareness centers has a different frequency.

Solar Plexus center: Spirit – Awareness center - Motor
Biologically, the solar plexus center relates to the kidneys, the pancreas, the prostate gland and the nervous system. People who are unable to deal with their emotional nature are likely to suffer in these areas of their body, or in associated areas. An example might be emotional problems that lead to water retention in the body and weight problems.

Heart/Ego center: Form – Motor
Each of its four gates represents a crucial aspect of our physiology. IN the 40th gate, you have the stomach. When the stomach is full, the Ego feels good, but when the stomach is empty, the willpower in the 40th gate is driven to go out and find something to eat. In the 26th gate, you have the thymus gland, the gland responsible for the creation of our immune system. When a fetus is in the womb, it is the thymus gland that actually designs the immune system. Thus the channel 26/44 is the only direct connection between the Ego and the immune system in the Spleen.
For the first three years of life, the thymus gland establishes the way in which the immune system will work. The power of the Ego is our main shelter from disease because it is the Ego that releases B-cells that fight disease. Physiologically as well as metaphorically, the Ego is a warrior. The other two gates of the Heart center are the 51st gate, which represents the gall bladder, and the 21st gate, which represents the heart muscle itself. Because we find all these organ systems of the body within this center, it is obvious that it can be the source of many physical problems if a person is unaware of its mechanics in their individual design.

The G center: Love, direction and identity
Biologically, the G center relates to the liver and to the blood. We know that alcohol is destructive for the liver and thus it is also destructive for the self. It can literally destroy a person’s identity. It is also of note that once damages, liver cells cannot be replaced. There is a great tradition in stating the spiritual nature of the liver, which has its root in ancient Indo-European ideas about the importance of the liver. In Human Design terms, this is correct, because the magnetic monopole is directly responsible for our incarnating process. It draws us into the body and it takes us out of the body.

The Head center: Pressure center
The Head center is associated with the pineal gland. It is the outlet from the deep grey areas of the brain into our neo-cortex. It opens up into the Ajna center where our pituitary glands are, the master endocrine glands for the functioning of our body system. One way to understand the function of the pineal gland is to imagine it as a kind of border guard. It sits in its little box on the border, and it has a flap that it can lift up and down to allow passage in and out of its border. In other words, it filters information between the deep gray areas and the neo-cortex. This is precisely what happens between the Head and Ajna centers.
What people normally assume when they hear the word “inspiration” is that it is coming from the outside. However, as we have seen, it actually comes from inside us, since the vast majority of our mental processes actually take place in the dark. We don’t know anything about them. More than 90% of our mental process takes place in the deep gray areas of the brain where we have absolutely no access to them. Inspiration comes from within as a result of experience.

Susan Wight, 6/2 MG

Lynda: thanks Susan - this was wonderful

I can share with you about being a 5/1 profile because I am one. The one thing or peice of knowledge that I wished someone could of shared with me was about my profile. For me it has been very difficult at times to live within the projection field of others (especially when I was younger) and what they expected of me. It is always funny to see family, friends and various people always coming to me asking or seeing me as someone who could advise them or help them on various things that I may or may not have wisdom or knowledge on, or to be who they want me to be but they expect it anyways, and I better give them what they want or else, BAM. Even when I do not know the answer or am someone that they want me to be I find that I still have to give them something..... that is of pratical use, like consult this person, go here, perhaps do that.
I have found over time and many life's experiencies that it better be something that is practical and they can apply to their challenge or in their life right now to make things better. I guess it is like going to the general and he has no advise for you to help. It was very hard on me personally and also in business because of my reputation which was sensitive to the projection fields of others. So I did do some retreating to figure what was going on in my life. Having a HD Reading would of been so much easier. hahah
Also from a very young age I have always felt that I am here for the other and not myself and that whatever I did in life I wanted to make some kind of a difference in the world, or why do it. I have only come into myself and this profile after I turned 40 and much more now that I am 45. For me I feel that the first half of my life was finding, investigating and building a solid foundation for myself and what it is that I bring into this world and the next half of my life will be spent on sharing it with the other. So life for me really starts at 50.

Suzannah Pure 5/1 Generator

Lynda's Comments: Thanks for sharing Suzannah. It's clear to me that HD is for children! One of the most common comments from people is "I wish I had this knowledge when I was younger. It would have saved me so much time and trouble" - not to mention self-esteem! It does take 5.1s a while to find their 'thing' in life. They really do flower in their 50s. So, when they hear this they can try and relax with life. Thanks for sharing your personal experiences.

6/2 - The Role Model/Hermit

As the 6/2 role model, you are here to develop clear objectivity and wisdom through life’s experiences. Your profile means you are a natural at what you do without always knowing why. You may feel under pressure because others have an expectation of you and you don’t know if and how you are going to fulfil the expectation because you don’t always know if it’s going to be there for you.

The deep theme for you is trust. When you trust in your natural ability, then you don’t have to be uncomfortable with why it works. There is pressure within your aura from other people that want you to do what they expect, and then tell them how you do it. But it’s not necessarily your job to tell someone how to do something. Your job is to ultimately be the objective observer, and out of that observation flows your contribution to others.

The moment that you can grasp that you can trust your gift, trust yourself, trust what it is to be you, you don’t have to be concerned about the detail. You can be an enormous influence. People need your legitimate, objective appraisal.

You have the ability to get people off the fence about things in their life. That’s your job in life. You can point out to others what does or does not work and this can be very valuable for them. Once you recognize something that really works, you have tremendous power to be an objective influence.

In your 30’s, your strategy comes through holding your space through trial and error, through life’s experiences that brings you great wisdom. As long as you sustain yourself during this time, you get to see the full spectrum of the experience. Stay with your nature and life process, and you will continue to recognize the beauty that lies within yourself. The sustaining capability you have is a very powerful force and it leads to that objectivity. Objectivity brings harmony into your life.

Most 6/2 role models are looking for another role model to partner with. What ever depth of water you’re swimming in, you need a partner that can swim as deep or even deeper then you.

When you reach your Chiron Return between the age of 48 and 52, you will be the ultimate sage, the wise role model, living your truth. It is important at this time that you live who you are.

So you have a very important role in this life. It is very important for you to go through your process so that you can be the leader for the rest of us – the role model – the authority - the wise sage. Yours is a transpersonal life and you can have a deep and important impact on those around you.

One final note, remember to take time just for you, your time alone, your own space. It won’t be given to you, you have to take it. I’m seeing more and more 6/2 profiles that have a separate room in the house that is just their own space. Follow your strategy and you will be able to live what it is to be a 6/2 role model.

Susan Wight, Rave Cartography class

Lynda's Comments: This was great Susan. I would make one point about the statement you made on when a 6.2 has their Chiron return they become a role model. Not necessarily. They have an opportunity to become a role model. The other side of this is the hypocrite. And this is also a potential. Some never come off the roof. So you want to tell them about this and why it's important for them to walk their talk and watch for the off the roof opportunities in their life. Often they don't come off the root until they are well into their 50s. It's takes some time for the Chiron to settle in fully into their life. Thanks and good work.

I have several friends and family members that are 6/2s. They all are very positive, objective people that I enjoy being around. Although they seem alright to open up and share intimate details of their life with me when I ask (I'm a 4/6), I still get a sense there's a lot more to them than meets the eye. They are definitely more comfortable talking about others than themselves. The combination of their aloofness and hermit tendencies keeps them somewhat elusive yet always being sought out by others.

Lynda's Comments: Yes, they can be aloof and also unsure about themselves, how they are being perceived (2) and avoiding putting themselves in a place where they might have to explain themselves. They are real observers. Thanks.

When we were kids, I had a hard time holding any type of conversation with him without getting into an argument and even a fight.

I always felt observed and judged by him and he would not hold his breath to point out what he saw in me (mostly me since I was his only "childhood buddy") that was "uncool" "shitty" "makes you look queer" or anything he could say to make me "change" into what he had discovered was "cooler" "more hip" etc.

As a kid, he would often sell his toys (and mine) because "NEWER & BETTER TOYS" had just been advertised... Now that I look back, I see how wonderful it was to have his innovative concept arround.

My little brother Fernando is now 31 and is a Computer Engineer... He gets paid for what used to annoy everyone (mainly me) in the house: FINDING AND POINTING OUT FLAWS.

I guess this is what I have mostly experienced arround a 3/5 that I can correlate to others I've met.

Lynda's Comments: Thanks Tony. Could you add to this by explaining a little about what you would say to a 3.5 about their profile.

I have a son who has a 1/3 profile. It is fascinating to see his energy at work. He is only 12 years old and we already see that he looks for many things in his life which are or can be solid and secure for him. He is someone who very much wants to be independent so he can learn it for himself and be in charge (which he loves to do). He seems to have no problem challenging authority haha. He is a very creative person with many ideas on how perhaps he can earn money now and in the future, changing his mind several times after he tries things. Money to him helps give him a solid foundation and he likes to buy things for himself and others. He has tried many things so far always moving from one thing to the next, never staying with one particular thing (driving my husband crazy) exploring, finding out what works , what doesn't , what he likes and dislikes at the time. He likes to ask lots of deep questions for someone his age, wanting to know why and wanting to understand how things work. We can see his profile also by the shows that he watches on tv about discovery. It is amazing to see him talk and explain things which he is interested in and be an authority on, educating us and others. I realize that it is important for us to provide and introduce things to him which can education him in order for him to create a solid foundation for himself.

Lynda's Comments: Thanks for sharing about your son and how lucky he is to have a mother who understands him. He has a real chance to grow up a healthy 1.3. How fortunate. HD is for children...that is to help parents understand how to raise and support their children in a healthy way.

My 1/4 Projector mother, after 73 years of living, has lots of friends but still doesn't know why "all these people" seek her out.

What she loves most is her private time to research the life and times of her roots. She raised us kids as a stay at home Mom (based on the desires of my 2/4 Projector Dad), and agreed to this dependency with my father because she could benefit from it. It allowed her to find her "harmony" by spending time alone during the day cultivating her creativity. I discovered a few years ago that she has spent countless hours over her life writing a book about the experiences/story of her parents growing up, then herself, then her marriage, then each of us kids, now my dad's life, etc. (collective circuitry). A few years ago she shared with me some of her writings. She explained that she had spent many hours not only asking her own parents about their lives, but all her relatives and even some of their friends. During that process she discovered that not all of her parents siblings saw things the same way as her parents described it. As a 1st line, she has not taken anything for granted and has done as much research as she can...but as a 4th line, she also decided that her view point was more important than getting consensus from the rest of the family and decided she was going to write this "book". Right now her book is 300 + typed pages on an old fashion typewriter--because she is too conservative to use a computer, and is continually updated as she learns new facts. She has also made it very clear that no one is to ever read her book without her specific permission (her way of abdicating). I also get the impression that the facts in her "books" will never stop being "updated" until the day she dies.

Great story Carol. And wonderful observations about your mother. A 1.4 profile at work doing her thing. Thanks, good work, Lynda

The 1/3 Profile

As I learn about the 1/3 profile, I continually have the ‘aha’ experience of recognizing myself. ‘To seek deeply the foundation’ resonates very powerfully, and I believe I’ve been seeking to understand the foundation of things ever since I can remember. I have funny memories of early conversations with my father, in which I questioned how the universe could be infinite, what had come before, and if there was a God, what came before him, and why couldn't we know? There has been a constant questioning, and need to try to understand the very essence of life itself, a need to get to the foundation. Often, I catch myself, or my husband will point out, I am like a four-year old continually asking, ‘Why? Why is it this way?’ For a time, in my twenties, I was busy trying to understand how family-of-origin conditioning had impacted my own life. I now see this digging into myself, as the object of the investigation, as a manifestation of the ‘focused on self’ inclination. And yet, it is this investigation and the experience of it that gives me the courage (certainty of the foundation) and knowledge to travel much more difficult inner roadways with others (as a psychotherapist). For me, it is also an ‘empathic’ endeavor as this is how I understand the other’s experience, can make sense of it for myself, and then proceed to share it with them. Empathy is, by definition, a process of deep inner resonation, and thereby, the road to understanding. I remember a fellow student once commenting, the trouble with you is you identify too closely with everyone. I never quite understood what she meant; I didn't know there was another way to do it!

Not surprisingly, it is more difficult for me to relate to the unconscious 3rd line profile. Although, when I think of all the different theories/dimensions of the psyche and life I have studied and abandoned, I can relate to its themes of trial and error, challenging the validity of the foundation, destroying it and moving on. This has been very disconcerting to me at times, and yet I see it as an evolutionary process. It is this continual quest to find the truth that works, that answers the questions, that explains the great mysteries. On the one hand, I know this is beyond my understanding, and on the other hand, there's a driving force to keep trying!

P.S. It’s a good thing we’re only supposed to write a paragraph because I think I could have written pages on how correct this profile feels to me...

1/3 Emotional Manifestor

Lynda's Comments: Thanks Lainie for sharing yourself - it's so valuable for the rest of us who work in HD to have first had knowledge of what it is like to be a particular profile. Your quest for trying to understand life also comes from having an open Sacral. Open Sacral people want to understand the mysteries of life. Lynda