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I thought I write about emotional authority, since it is my own, and give you my take on it...

The biggest problem with my emotional authority is that it is only half-conscious.

Very difficult for me occasionally to feel my own emotions.

My girlfriend is emotional undefined (splenic) and has a much better idea what's going on with me emotionally than I most of the time since she feels my emotions amplified of course.

Don't you hate that when someone comes up to you telling you how down you feel today and you go: 'What the hell are you talking about??'

Before HD I tend to drive people around me nuts with my decision making process. I was going: Yes, No, Yes, No, I don't know, what should I do.....for days or weeks.

Everyone was saying: Can't you make up your bloody mind!

Today I just keep to myself until I'm clear and then say (if at all) what I'm going to do.

This uncertainty was driving me mad before HD! Now I know this is my process. I give myself time. I don't pressure myself to find a decision. My mind was going into overdrive before. It thought it needed more research because of the lack of clarity.

Today I can only laugh about the whole charade! If I don't know what to do, I lean back in my chair, grinning, do something else, knowing that now simply isn't the right time do deal with it yet.

I learned to love both my ups and downs equally. The downs have such a beautiful inspiring quality that I don't get from anything else. It really gives everything a new perspective.

It's incredible how different things look in different moods.

Sometimes I come to a decision to soon, but today I feel no longer ashamed to go back and change it if I feel bad about it.

I had to learn to let my brain be the advocat (if at all) but never the judge.

I can remember the first time I met Richard Rudd.

He said to my girlfriend (splenic): 'You have to speed up'
and to me (emotional): 'And you have to slow down with your decisions'

What an amazing bit of advice in my first HD reading.

I'm a Manifesting Gennerator, and if I don't wait until I'm clear I can be a real bull in a china-shop. In the past I just starting manifesting at the word 'Go' only to stop halfway through because I didn't have a clue what I was doing and looking back horrified at the mess.

You don't want to see an emotional MG that isn't clear. It's not a beautiful sight!

Today, you say 'Go!' and I say: 'Well...You go, I stay here and may join you later.'

Gennaro's comments: thanks for this. if things or people can't wait for our process to become clear then they were never meant for us in the first place. I always use the example of the titanic (that boat that sunk on it's first trip). if your friend said to you, "quick i have two tickets to ride on the first voyage of the titanic, but we have to go now!" if you are not clear, then let your friend go. that opportunity was not for you...

I am a single definition, not a lot to say its exactly as it says in the self study material. Interesting that it says people sometimes find it hard to find a hook, this has been said to me and I never knew why. As I was contemplating definition last week I did a chart for the woman who cleans my house; ah the elusive quadruple spit , never found one before. The most sticking things about this woman are her very defined characteristics very much what you see is what you get, She has everything defined except the head which is totally open. And the fact that she is in such poor health. I always put her heath down to appalling diet but now I see that the state of her kidneys (she only has one which works at all and that at about 60%) may be down to her inability to process her emotions, which are totally cut off from the rest of her. She is completely unable to relax, can’t sleep and often ironing or cleaning her house at 4 or 5 in the morning. She is a single parent and although she dates she declares regularly that she doesn’t need a man for anything except sex and no man is “ getting his feet under her table”. I see the pressure she must feel from her undefined head, never having much of an education she has been doing IT courses and could now get a job in computing however she is not convinced she is good enough or intelligent enough what ever I tell her (she spends as much time fixing my computer as cleaning my house).

Gennaro's comments: this is just my theory based on what i have seen of quads: they often think they are broken. and at the same time nobody can help them. I have met few quads but none of them have an easy time. the best advice is for them to finds things they can do alone but around others.

Gennaro asked for us to post an overview of all nine centers in our own words. Here is mine.

Spleen
One of the three awareness centers. The Splenic Center is there to keep us alive. This intuitive sense of what it takes to survive is based on fear and each gate in the Splenic Center has a certain fear associated with it. Once a person learns to accept his or her design strategy and authority, these fears no longer carry the same sort of influence on one’s mental state, they become more of a guide for the awareness of what will be healthy or not for that person.

Defined: If the Solar Plexus is not defined, the spleen will be your authority, guided by intuition. These people tend to rarely get sick as long as they are following their design strategy. Their immune system is fixed and reliable. It can still break down however, but by the time it does the person with a defined spleen will most likely get real sick. There doesn’t seem to be much of an in between for them because they are so accustomed to having that spleen filter out anything that could keep them not feeling good. So by the time whatever it is that is breaking down their immune system has gotten far enough to get their attention, they are already sick and will most likely get much worse before they get better.

Undefined: Are you still holding on to what’s not good for you? Potential to have difficulty eliminating things and/or people that are bad for them because they think that they make them feel good. There is also the potential for tremendous wisdom for the health and well being of themselves and others because people with an open spleen need to be so in tuned to their health. Holistic medicine is good for open spleens.

Ajna

The “toy box.” Another awareness center. The mind is useful for others, useless for yourself, other than when it is called upon to come up with a concept or answer of some sort. Never your authority.

Defined: Great at conceptualizing/creating. The 11th gate is the gate of ideas, for instance. Wants to convince others (and yourself) of its great ideas and thoughts. One with a defined Ajna must always remember that your thoughts, ideas, opinions, etc. can only be shared when another being asks for them. When defined to the Head Center, the Ajna can be very active from the pressure to resolve various issues, so the awareness that your decisions are not made here is crucial.

Undefined: Are you still trying to convince everyone that you are certain? The reality is that you are incapable of truly original thought. Yet, open minds are sometimes capable of grasping enormously complex issues without any prior direction or foundation. An open Ajna is also the best evaluator of a defined Ajna. So the defined Ajna comes up with a concept and the undefined Ajna can then be asked if it’s a good one or not.

Solar Plexus

Very powerful motor. Also one of the three awareness centers. Also a pleasure center with sex and food being the primary pleasures.

Defined: Will always be your authority. You will always be on an emotional wave-either traveling up or down, therefore there is no truth in the now. Your wave changes your view as it travels from peak to valley and back, so never make snap decisions. You never know how you are going to feel about something at a later time, so you wait to get a different perspective. For bigger decisions, the longer you wait the better. The goal is clarity. Knowing that you can never be 100% certain, but that you need to be as close to clear as possible before making big decisions is the key to finding emotional balance. Emotional people can never be aware, only clear on following this strategy. Melancholy is to be allowed in these people—trying to "fix" their mood when they are down in their wave is a recipe for disaster.

People with defined Emotional Centers are here to process the highs and lows of life. This process requires time for reflection, and when given that time, it yields the most profound view of life as a human. Clarity from an emotional perspective can lead to profound wisdom.

Undefined: Are you still avoiding confrontation and truth? With the Solar Plexus being such a powerful motor you can imagine what lengths a person with an undefined emotional system will go to avoid certain confrontations if there is an underlying truth that must be faced with those confrontations. Every person is different, of course, but all of us with undefined emotional systems have to accept this as a reality of our life. We naturally do not like confrontation. Let us just go about our business. You don’t bother me, and I won’t bother you. This can be very dangerous. The bottom line is that if you are open emotionally, whatever your authority is will tell you what confrontations will need your attention, and whatever truth that needs to be faced with a certain confrontation will ultimately make you healthier as a person once it has all be resolved.

Half of humanity is undefined emotionally. Food and sex drives tend to be more elevated (can be very dangerous if in combination with other undefined centers such as the spleen and sacral). As is always the case, the best evaluator of the defined center is one with the same center undefined. Some people with open solar plexus can become so in tuned to the emotions of others that they seem empathic.

Sacral

Energy center. 70% of the world’s population have a defined Sacral Center and are categorized as generators, including manifesting generators. Generators are here to do the world’s work, guided by projectors. They are here to be builders, not slaves. Change (awaken) generators, you change the world.

Defined: Your energy is consistent and everything for you is just a question of availability. You simply must wait to respond. The sacral makes the decisions in a simple ahuh (yes) or uh uh (no). So you can't intellectualize these responses, just trust them. It can be challenging for an emotional generator not to make decisions in the now. Must simply wait and ask the question again. But having the ability to respond to life and to be able to trust this response is where the generator will find true happiness.

Undefined: Do you know when enough is enough? Can be unable to regulate certain things in their life—food, alcohol, dangerous games. Can also become super slaves if they ignore their strategy and allow the energy of a generator to amplify in them. These people are the ones that work themselves to death and spend the entire time hating it, vexingly unable to change anything.

Root Center

Pressure center (along with the head).

Defined: Will always go at your own pace. Not affected by pressure from others. Tend to handle stress very well. A defined root can put pressure on other centers to be more of what they are supposed to be.

Undefined: Are you still in a hurry to be free (of the pressure)? Tends to make you want to get through with things quickly—always in a hurry. Can also be the source of depression. Easily affected by feelings of being pressured by others.

Head Center
The other pressure center. Can, for instance, put pressure on the mind to resolve questions. Only has three gates and can only be defined through the mind.

Defined: Pressures the mind for answers. Wants to know the unknowable. Also can display natural brilliance and a command of logical progressions. But can also give you selective memory. Pressures the mind into subjectively interpreting the gaps in your memory. Emotions and an open ego can affect this greatly. A defined head and mind will never stop thinking. It also tends to have vividly remembered dreams at night, and usually has some music playing inside.

Undefined: Are you still trying to answer everybody else’s questions? Whenever this is the case, it comes from the not self and is not correct for you. These people can be viewed as “know-it-alls.”

Heart Center

Also known as the ego will center. Affects organs in the body such as the gall bladder, thymus and stomach.

Defined: People with a defined heart must know that it is OK to be confident, but also cautious not let this get them out of whatever their individual strategy is. This is the source of true will power because these people are here to prove their value on the material plane. They also can evaluate the success or failure of others. You can imagine what this does to the other two thirds of humanity that does not have a defined ego.

Undefined: Do you still have something to prove? The downfall of undefined egos--trying to prove that they are something that they are not and promising people things that they cannot or should not deliver. Everybody wants to be in control and our society beats this into our brains from a very early age. Yet the open ego needs to understand that it has nothing to prove and that it’s OK to allow the defined egos their space and not try to compete with them. The ego seems uniquely peculiar in that no other open center’s not self aura can rattle another person’s open center quite like two open egos trying to prove something. In other words, you rarely see two people with undefined emotions being overly emotional with each other. You will see them try from time to time, but an open ego will have to kick in to try to prove that they are as emotional as they think they are being. But let two open egos start arguing about some unimportant fact and have one of them imply that the other is stupid for not thinking like he or she does--now you have a genuine spectacle.

G Center

The center for love and direction in life. It also controls the liver and is the home of the magnetic mono pole. All of the gates of the G-Center are uniquely placed either at the beginning or middle of the quarters in the Rave Mandela. No other center has its gates evenly placed around the wheel like this. The eight gates of the G-Center are also unique in that four of them make up all of the variations of the cross of the Sphinx, and the other four make up the cross of The Vessel of Love. This is why your identity is tied so tightly to love and direction.

Defined: You have a strong sense of self and direction. Your identity is fixed. You are not too caught up in things like whether your life is going in the right direction or whether your latest mate is “the one.” You can still be capable of insecurities, depending on the rest of your design, but you probably won’t be announcing to your friends and family the need to “go find yourself.”

Undefined: Are you still looking for love and direction? Very important to be in the right place, this will put you in the right direction. Also need to be aware that if you are in the wrong place, you are with the wrong people. An undefined G-Center indicates an ability to play many roles, appearing as all things to all people, often appearing as quite the innocent. The undefined G can also provide a mirror for others to see what they love or hate within themselves.

The Throat Center

The throat is about transformation. It has two functions, communication and manifestation. Seven of the 11 gates in the throat are only about communication. The other four (35, 12, 45, 20) can be both communication and manifestation. At a core level everything in one’s design would like to get to the throat because here is where it can be expressed to the whole world. Just like in Rome, all roads lead to the throat. The throat also controls the thyroid.

Defined: Healthy thyroid when its host is operating according to his or her strategy. The throat speaks for that to which it is connected. A channel connected to the throat will be a consistent voice for that person, and the center(s) associated with that channel will color everything that person says. A defined throat does not necessarily create an articulate person. Their manner of speaking is fixed, so if the person does not normally speak very well, they will tend to speak in this manner forever. Regardless of the manner of speaking, a defined throat will be able to speak when called upon, unless its host is not living out their true nature. Then the throat will become the source of enormous difficulties, such as sickness and thyroid issues.

Undefined: Are you still trying to attract attention? An undefined throat feels like it’s never going to be heard, thus we get the not-self desire to attract attention. On the other hand, an open throat gives the potential for great spoken wisdom, particularly for the listening audience. Some of the world’s greatest singers and orators have carefully trained undefined throats, but these people have learned how to treat their throats, which is the true wisdom of any open center. If the person with an undefined throat gets too caught up in trying to be sure everybody is listening while they gab on and on, it will most certainly lead hoarseness and other throat maladies.

Gennaro: Randy this is really excellent. you are a good and clear writer. the thoughts are easy to read. thanks.

As a generator I have of course a defined sacral centre. I know very well the feeling when my motor is properly engaged, especially in the area of work. When I was working on shamanic seminars, which I loved. I could work all day, be last to bed at five in the morning and be up at eight to help with breakfast. Never felt tired or at least not till the whole week was over. The format also suited me as the one outlet from my sacral is the channel 42/ 53 and I like things with a definite beginning and end. If only the rest of life was so straightforward. When my motor is not so engaged, boy is it hard for me to motivate myself to do something. My accounts for example……aaaahhh they are on my “to wait” list all year it’s never the right time and I have to be dragged kicking and screaming to the desk at the eleventh hour. Haven’t solved that one yet. In my work as an acupuncturist each appointment has a beginning a middle and an end, great. In relationships Ra says my attitude is lets get this over with. Not sure about that, it’s definitely lets get on with this and often I can see the end before it’s really begun but I still like to think there might be at least another one that lasts more than a few months LOL. Still I do have the 53;54 moon nodes , don’t like to be pinned down, have to see the way out. It will come as a huge surprise if I ever say ahha to getting married again. I always know when enough is enough and I used to be a bit judgemental about those who didn’t, especially in the area of alcohol.

Gennaro: the 42/53 aren't always into ending the relationship. they are very into doing the full process. so they can also say, let's get this relationship started already! or let's start the next level!

If planets activate the gates on each end of a channel, the entire channel is colored either in black or red, and the center whose belongs to the channel too, it's called a definition, its a permanent connection, so reliable and always active,. The definitions gives us our uniqueness, everything that is defined in our chart is inherited from our ancestry, and things that are not defined are what we take from our environment.

There are 5 main definitions

SINGLE]Two or more centers connected without any cut off.This is a very consistant way of the person s' energy operate>These people don't need external influence to bridge their centers, They are whole of the time, less reason for them to hook into others, but can mean also self sufficient and could be a problem for the others who try to fit with them .

SPLIT DEFINITION

-single is the most common , two groups of centers separated from each others, each group is not always communicating to the other(s), for example you think something and your feeling is completely different, so you might need more time to get in things,

-triple

they are three different areas that need to communicate before they feel whole, as they could be seen from 3 different ways they might have friends that they have nothing to do together ,and is the typical case where in a group people said that you are for example intellectual an in another group very emotional, or it can be said :"I never think that YOU are able to do that.." All the split are interested in finding peole to join their split but more the 3 or 4 want to stay connected with their whole , it can result a social burnout in case they don't live their strategy

quadruple:

four areas of defintion separated from each other, very rare, they are very fixed because of a lot of definitions they have to experience their life through a fixed path , it means that they have at minimum eight defined centers, so lot of information coming from different ways which take time to process because of the lack of communication of the centers in the same time.
For all the split as their focus is very much about finding people who join the split, public places are very good for them to get the bridge without dependency
if you have NO DEFINITION you are a reflector, very unusual, they are here to take things in, thery are here not to be fixed, when their channel are defined is always by conditionning, the place , the environment are vey important for them

I am single split definition it's really true that I feel my potential when I work in a team or a group as I m generator spleen defined by the 27 -50 and solar plexus defined by the 41-30 I really enjoy the spontaneous thing s that could happen anywhere and at he same time new feelings or sharing experiences . but in my private life my family my husband give me the bridge of my 42 with the 53 it's nice when i't a project to finish or something that I have to manage and focus on because of my 9 activated too, less interested when he begins something in the house and not be able to finish it, (like the week end Do It Yourself!!!) .
On an other hand my twins who bridge my 3 with their 60 so pulse always waiting for something to happen , and a progressive process when we are all 4 together what conditionning!!! and even I noticed that Its a real problem for me to not be overflow by the adrenaline coming from my root to my sacral, Sometimes I really appreciate my single split ...so relax... anyway just have to learn how to live my strategy in that case more often because all the time.

Gennaro: yes very good. one thing about the quad split: they are very fixed with all the definition but they are also fragile because they need others to be whole

My undefined root center with only one little gate (39) can feel very uncomfortable.

I have no active gates in any of the format channels so depression is not much of an issue for me.

Yet what happens when my root gets activated is:

1. My hanging gate 39 (Disengagement) can make me feel trapped.

2. I feel an enormous pressure to get things done. Or since I also have an undefined ego, I feel an enormous pressure to prove myself.

Both of my parents activated my root centre and I lived with them in the same house until my late 20's.
It felt like hell to me. There was this incredible pressure on me all this time and the Gate 39 didn't allow me to do anything. I felt, trapped. I couldn't breathe, couldn't work. It was very physical. (39.1) 1st line.

I couldn't laugh, I couldn't sing/write. Trapped energy.
There were mornings when I felt like: 'Why bother, why do anything?'
At the same time there was this incredible pressure. I didn't go to work, yet I had stomach problems because of the stress.

I always hated deadlines. I have two ways of dealing with them.

a.
Wait until the last hour and then deal with it. Which means I try to avoid the pressure by totally ignoring it and the deadline.
b.
Going to it immediately and do it all in one go to get rid of the pressure.

The only way out of this is to NOT allow my mind to dictate my life. My mind will always suggest either to put my head into the sand and ignore everything which it thinks is the reason for that pressure, or to do everything immediately until I drop to get rid of it.

It's about time to take this burden from my mind's shoulders and explain to it that it does no longer have to deal with this ridiculous situation. That my strategy/real authority is much better equipped to handle all of that.

Steve Rhodes
emot. MG

Gennaro: as was mentioned in a previous post, the undefined root is nto as smooth with dealing with stress. it is inconsistant after all

In our house we have two defined solar plexes and two undefined. This week only my younger daughter and I are here both undefined It’s is sooooo peaceful, no emotion flying about. As soon as one of the others walks through the door I know exactly what mood they are in, More rows and more fun but I need a break from them sometimes. Knowing about amplification has been a revelation. I remember one really wild row with my best friend who is an emotional manifestor and when she gets angry boy you don’t want to be around, I was, I amplified it. We called each other every name under the sun and then some. We couldn’t speak to each other for two weeks after then we were able to laugh about it. I love to go to gigs or clubs now and then I can really ride that high wave and dance all night though I can feel a bit flat afterwards. One funny thing about it when I was a Buddhist I used to think I had reached some higher state of emotional detachment because I wasn’t always in a state like some of my friends then…… of course I had , never had it in the first place LOL

Gennaro: i also have an open solar plex. after hanging out with a defined solar plexus it is like coming out of a music concert - my ears are buzzing from all the noise.

I have a defined spleen and being an acupuncturist what I have learned about this is very interesting to me. I don’t entirely agree with all of it . For example I know I can cope with allopathic medicines better than some people but they still have pretty awful side effects and I don’t take much more than the odd painkiller. Energetic systems of medicine have always worked better for me and that was how I got into acupuncture as under stress as working as a trouble shooter in inner city schools I eventually became ill and allopathic medicine didn’t even know what was wrong with me and could do nothing to put it right. Acupuncture worked very quickly and explained what had happened I have never looked back.
Looking at charts of my clients it’s interesting to note that all the ones with post viral syndrome or ME have undefined spleens and I usually treat them on the spleen meridian. They hang on to viruses but they also hang on to fluid, which is presumably to do with conditioning. One client who was somewhat better but not quiet I advised to sleep alone. As his marriage was not too good as well he took my advise and got better very quickly. My older daughter who has an undefined spleen cannot cope with allopathic medicine at all they put her blood pressure up or bring her out in a violent rash. Though interestingly the younger one cannot take antibiotics either she throws them up within minites

Gennaro's note: i agree that this is an oversimplification. natural medicine can benefit everyone and allopathic medicine is often like taking a shower with ajax - it gets you clean but the side effects are hardly worth it. the main point is that defined spleens, once sick, are really sick and thus need a heavier treatment.

G Center

I and my husband are not defined G center.
(I have 46 gate and husband has 1 gate )

If we want to go somewhere in holiday, we say "Where shall we go?"
Then we have no idea actual place to which we want to go.
Our talk is not settled to go out somewhere as long as there are an event etc. beforehand, and we can’t decide to go where shall we go.

However, "I want to go there" and "I want to do that in there" in our mind come out easily when talking in the place where a lot of people exist like the coffee shop for example. This seems our G centers are being defined by other people.

We don’t have car licenses. My husband says, "There is no confidence that I can obey all the traffic rules". I say, "It is scared that I get lost". (Fortunately, facilities of travel in Tokyo are very convenient. But when we go to large country like U.S.A., we might be in convenient. )

I am lost in the place visited for the first time. Therefore, it is necessary to search for the place beforehand in the map. However, it never hesitates when visiting once.

I observe my husband, he seems not to have strong identity.
However, when the switch turns on once, he says, "I want to do it by own way". He is　Emotional Manifestor. If someone bother his way, he get angry.

We don’t talk about love. First of all, "Exist or not. Being together or not” is important for us. We might not associate as generally said "Love". But we enjoy each philosophy, ability, and knowledge are esteemed by each other. Another Center(except G and Ego) and some gates seem that connecting us.

Ego Center

I have 51gate(unconscious) though Ego Center is not defined.
Because this gate is unconscious, I have not felt existence of this gate strong.
Is this related to an undefined Ego center though I tend to be weak stomach, and to cause arrhythmia?

Ego Center is not defined in my husband, too
However, he has 40 gate(conscious/unconscious) and 21 gate(unconscious). As for me, two gates that existed in his undefined Ego Center had been concerned since before.

First of all, he is an inquisitive person in money. It is good at calculation of money, and he dislike that someone touch his money or his collection.

In Japan, wife usually works for management of the household economy. And husband put his income to the household economy once, then he gets pocket money from his wife.

However, my husband wants to manage own money by himself.
He becomes very nervous how much money that I have been spent for household economy.
If the calculation is not suitable, it drives him to distraction and he become very emotional.

Next, he has bias in the favor of food. I think that his unbalanced diet has the possibility caused by this gate from the relation of 40 gates to the stomach.
For instance, he dislikes beef steak, but he likes Hamburg steak. He likes Kentucky Fried Chicken, but he hates other chickens.
He likes soup that pig's extract enters, but he never eat meet.

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Ikuko Takekawa,Japan
1/3 MG

Gennaro's comments: yes you guys are really getting the grasp of the concepts now.

I have three gates defined in my throat; The 56, 35, and 8.

I believe that I feel like a change in my contribution to the creative process.

I know that I can make a contribution and I believe that it will change my experience.

I feel like I can change my contribution, but I don't believe that it will make a difference.

I feel like a change in my contribution and I believe it will prove beneficial.

Gennaro's comments: good. try this varitation on keynotes (just circuitry): let me share something that will empower you.

My throat gates are the 62, I think or I don’t think, the 56, I believe or I don’t believe and the 45 I have or I don’t have. All are unconcious though the 45 is concious as well.
Its hard to really put all three together but clearly they go well in pairs; I think I believe or I think I have, I believe I have or I think I believe. I’m sure I have used these phrases over and over my whole life. Having an open ajna its handy to preface things with I think implying a lack of certainty.
It’s been an interesting part of my experiment to wait to only speak in response I have definitely found I get a better reaction to what I say. I still have a problem knowing when to stop especially with a question like what is this human design then? I have noticed that if I say very little I seem to leave people wanting to know more rather than trying to tell them too much which is still my natural inclination. After a party recently where I shared only a tiny bit of information with each person who asked me what I’m up to these days, I got three calls the next week asking me to tell people more and obviously seeing them alone and not in a party atmosphere is much better for telling them more.

Gennaro's comments: projectors speak with their aura. we all do, but projectors get recognized via the aura, not really by what they say

I am a 5/1 MG with 5 Throat activations, most of them conscious.

31/7 channel
13/33 channel
16 cons and unconsc
12 cons and uncons
35 unconsc

Most of what I say comes from wanting to share with others and influence them if possible.

I experiment (16) to try (12) to influence others (31) by sharing what I remember (33).
I try (12) to influence others (31)by sharing (33,35) new experiences (35).
I feel like (12)experimenting (16) to try (12)to influence you (31)with my remembering (33).

This doesn't ring completely true for me -- mostly I am trying to influence people with what I observe now. Ultimately I want to share with them what is practical, sometimes the useful information comes from memory, sometimes from the insights I have about the present. On second thought, the insights are usually about patterns.

Becky McDowell

Gennaro's comments: your profile of 5/1 will play a lot in this - practical 5

I have two defined channels in my throat.

35-36 (half unconscious) "I experience"
8-1 (also half-unconscious) "I know I can make a contribution"

and then two gates

62 "I think" conscious
56 "I believe" unconscious

I can definately associate with "I experience" and "I know I can make a contribution"

Since they are both unconscious, looking in the past I can see it happening a lot.

It's definately the way I act in the world.

I can and DO talk for hours on end about my experiences. If I don't follow my strategy I can annoy the hell out of people with this and can hijack conversations. If I don't respond, people don't even bother listening and never take anything in I say.

My acting in the world definately spins around the theme 'Can I make a contribution or not'. If I can't I tend to stay in the background. Yet if I could make one I still have to learn to follow my strategy to wait to respond.

Sometimes my not self strategy of the open ego tries to abuse me in showing my self-worthines in making a contribution that no one asked me to do.

The two hanging gates 'I think' & 'I believe' are not my main theme, yet I tend to flavour my acting through the two defined channels (contribution/experience) with a lot of 'I think' & 'I believe' when expressing myself.

Steve

Gennaro's comments: yes good. the pressure to jump will neverl go but with understanding you can flow into it via strategy

The best example that I can think of for an experience that I have had where I was able to see a clear difference between my defined mind and an open head/ajna has to be when I see this applied kineasiologist for my various back problems. The doctor that I see also happens to be the same guy that encouraged me to get a Human Design reading several years ago. So we have plenty to discuss when I go see him.

This doctor has exactly one gate activation in his head and ajna and we usually talk the entire time that he is treating me, which is somewhere around 30-45 minutes. What is so fascinating to me is that he can carry on this entire conversation while simultaneously putting me through all of these various strength activation tests. I can't even keep track of which arm he wants me to lift if I'm in the middle of answering a question, yet he converses with me throughout the entire session effortlessly.

They call a defined mind fixed and it is sometimes referred to as being "one track." My one-track fixed mind can only do one thing at a time and there is no doubt that I could not possibly follow some treatment methodology while simultaneously carrying on a conversation that has a totally unrelated topic. My doctor friend's wide open mind does this so easily that the conversation practically becomes part of the treatment.

Gennaro's comments: it would be interesting to study if multitasking and open minds go together

I was born with naturally skeptical mind with the pressure to doubt and question(64), to resolve the past(63) and to know something totally new(61). I experienced to feel the pressure a long time ago when I used my mind to solve the problems. Today I still have my doubts, I feel confuse sometimes and I always look for something new to learn, but all these processes inspire me, I really enjoy it and I have a lot of fun. I was a professor math/physics in Russia, I pursued a spiritual education here in America resulting in PhD in Metaphysics and now I learn HD, for me to learn how the Universe Laws works from the academical, the spiritual and the mechanical points of view brings me closer to the true.

Gennaro's comments: yes you are here to study what can't be answered! you are here to study the questions. you are here to show other people the questions. not the answers, just the questions. questions are beautiful. how boring the world would be if all questions had answers.