An open center is conditioned by someone within your aura that has the same center defined. And, as Sarah stated in her replay to the topic of Split Definition, "One strategy for added clarity for you is to go out into a public place where you can be alone. The aura of the world will hook up your splits without giving you any kind of direct conditioning."
What does it mean to have conditioning from your childhood? If you are no longer in physical proximity to your parents what maintains the programmed responses? Is one actually "free" from conditioning at the energy level only to be maintaining ineffective behaviors as an adult by some other means? Or does some kind of energetic connection with the parents continue to work to support and maintain the ineffective behaviors?
I had a mother with mental and emmotional definition. I don't want to get too Freudian but all my girlfriends after I left home also had those definitions. It was like I was seeking out what I knew. It wasn't necessarily what was healthy or unhealthy, it was just what I knew. They spoke a "language" I had learned to speak from birth. It is interesting that when I really started living my design I fell in love with somebody without the mental definition nor the emmotional one. It is like I broke the conditioning mold. This coincidentally was also around the seven year cycle.
So my personal experience is that of the traditional Freudian theory: we seek out our parents. But if you look at it from the Design perspective, what I was seeking out was my parent's conditioning. And if you live your design you stop acting out habbits that are outdated. Now when I come accross a woman with the same definitions as my mother, I decide to be involved with her on the basis of my sacral response and not on the basis of my past conditioning.
So, in a nutshell, I think you carry conditioning from childhood by going to the designs that you know, which invariably gets you into similar situations and relationships over and over again. The flip side is true as well: you can spend your whole life running from designs that you know from childhood. Both cases have nothing to do with living your design and everything to do with being controlled by conditioning.
Now if I could only learn to spell....
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